Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Two Days and Counting...

...until we jet off to the sunny Carribean. DH and I are leaving on Friday for a much needed holiday to the Dominican Republic and I am a little embarassed to say that we have chosen an adults only resort.

Why does this embarass me, you may ask? Because I'm an elementary school principal - aren't I supposed to LOVE being around children? When I was starting out my career in teaching, there were times when I would be highly amused by certain adults that I was at social gatherings with. Whenever there were children afoot, they would automatically assume that I would entertain their children whilst they enjoyed their glasses of wine and more "adult" conversation - after all, I was a teacher, wasn't I? They would invariably introduce me to their children by saying "This is Springroll, she's a Grade Three teacher!" They would smile, nudge their children towards me, then leave me in the dust while the kids dragged me toward their drawings or toys. It drove me crazy.

More recently, since the onset of my "condition", I find myself melancholy, at times, just being around children (especially our youngest students, who are typically 3.5 to 4 years of age). For example, at last year's Mother's Day Tea, our Kindergarten children sang "You are My Sunshine" to a room full of beaming mothers - and a bawling principal. Most moms thought that I was touched by the moment - little did they know that I was crying because I was faced with the possibility that I would never hear a child of my own singing this very same song to me. Rather pathetic. And last year's spring break holiday, while amazing, also had its tear-filled moments. Like the day that I watched a man carry his little baby boy around the pool on his shoulders. The little boy shrieked in delight each time he got splashed. The man beamed. And I cried - wondering if my own husband would ever get the chance to do that. Good lord.

Given the fact that I am around children all of the time, and given my somewhat fragile mental state (ha-ha!), I jumped at the chance to go to a beautiful, five-star, child-free resort. I can't wait to lie on my lounger, listening to nothing but the sound of the ocean lapping against the shore. Yay me.

In other news - my sonohysterogram went smoothly and was so much less painful than an HSG!! Though it's not my first choice of ways to spend my spring break, I'd do it again if I had to. And the best part is - I got a clean bill of health! No polyps, no issues. And even better than that - they gave me another antral follicle count and it's at 10!!! That's TWO more than last month's!! Wooohoooo!! Now if we can only see the same number of follies when we cycle, we'll be laughing all the way to the clinic...

P.S. Congrats to my special cyber-friend, CJDR, who gave birth to a beautiful little boy a couple of weeks ago. She is proof that miracles can happen - you just have to believe...

5 comments:

... said...

Congrat's on the follicle count, grow follies, grow! Good for you and your vacation too, you deserve stress-free, peaceful relaxation. I hope you have a great time!

Anonymous said...

Oh Springroll, you had me welling up with your description of the kindies singing. I hope you and hubby have a wonderful vacation, and your follies get excited and ready to grow!

Huge hugs.
T.

taniab said...

Enjoy yourself and enjoy the sunshine. Congrat's on the follicle count, definately looks great for your next cycle.

CJDR said...

Hey Hunny,
Enjoy your much deserved holiday!! I love the Dominican and know you will too! Next cycle is gonna be it I can feel it...then it will be you who will be getting it from me, because you are too busy to up-date your blog! LOL ;)
Thanks for everything, I never could have done half this journey without you. Your a great friend.

Anonymous said...

So happy (and a little jealous:)that you are getting away to an adults only resort!! Coming from a fellow teacher, and someopne who has faced years of infertility, I know to well the pain that can touch you when you least expect it. This time last year my hubby and I went on an "adults only" trip as well...little did we know it would be our last! (at least for a few years!) I know the end of this infertility journey is around the corner for you as well. I wish you a fantastic trip!!

HUGS
~Babyobesessed