Well, back from a week of sun and fun with my dearest husband...boy, did we need that break! We stayed at a beautiful 5-star, all inclusive resort - wow, so wonderful. The weather was beautiful, hot, and humid, and the margaritas were cold and sweet. I really did enjoy myself immensely, and even had a few fleeting moments (...just a few, mind you...) when I had actually allowed myself to forget about this whole ttc thing! But as I lay by the pool in the afternoons (in my unsuccessful attempts to turn myself into a bronzed goddess...), I couldn't help but notice the little babies splashing in the children's water park; the little ones screaming in delight as their daddy piggy-backed them in the pool; or the mommies swinging with their toddlers in the hammocks. Dang - should've looked for an adults only resort...
Today is Day 10 of our bazillionth cycle ttc. DH and I attended an Information Evening on IVF right before we left for Mexico. It really helped DH learn a lot about the process and I was glad that our clinic requires attendance from both partners. I knew a lot of what was shared already, but I don't think that DH knew everything that was involved. Now he does. And he said to me on our trip, "Honey, we are gonna try really hard these next few months to get pregnant ourselves, okay?" Oh...well...what have we been doing for the last year and a half? Just practicing?!?
The thing is, I don't think this month will be ours anyway, given the fact that I am scheduled for a hysteroscopy and possible D & C on the 16th - which could conceivably be about 4 days after ovulation (if my body decides to cooperate and go back to its regularly scheduled programming...) I seriously doubt that any implantation could take place, even if fertilization occurred, given the fact that my endometrium (don't you love these technical terms? Oh, so sexy!!) is going to be scraped clean. But I will give it the old college try - because you just never know, right? At this point, I know that anything can happen.
Okay, random thought just entered my head: how about that JLo? I read the People magazine article on her during my vacation and she claims her twins weren't conceived through fertility treatments. Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but wasn't there quite a bit written about her frustrations and sadness at not being able to conceive? How she tried for years to get pregnant? And we are supposed to believe, that at the ripe old age of 38, she conceived twins naturally?!? Do I sound skeptical? Have I asked enough questions?
Well, I'm off to Walmart to pick up some ovulation sticks...wish I was off to the swim-up bar for another margarita instead...
12 comments:
yay your back!! Glad you had fun!
sorry I accidently hit enter...haha its the blonde hair! Anyways I'm glad you had dh join you at the ivf night....its good for them to understand everything that is going on...so whats next? How long do you have to wait?
Hey there, little miss!
Thanks for the welcome! I missed you guys...and isn't that great news about Liz? Our time will come, CJ - I promise.
I just read your thread and I am so glad that you are more hopeful now. Anything that I can tell you that will help you feel more comfortable with your IUI, I will be happy to share. Just ask!
I think my wait will be until about June or July. I am scared about getting my polyp removed...ack!
*HUG*
-SR
I'm honestly not worried about the IUI anymore. I dont know what it is, but I feel alot better about everything. I may feel different next month though ;)But I may still have alot of questions...
When you have the polyp removed are they putting you under?? Just remember you are strong and this is just one more small (stupid) hurtle.
It is great news about Liz and I hope this is the one for her! I have such a good feeling that Ashley, you and I are next (Ali too)....maybe these herbs the acupuncturist are giving me are making me loop-y...but I really do have a great feeling about everything right now.
~CJ
Thanks for adjusting your settings to allow us anony-mi folk partake in the peanut gallery.
Glad you enjoyed your vay-kay, I'm so jealous.
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HI! Great to find your blog! I am also dealing with IF...DH and I were married just 2 months before you and it seems our IF experiences have been quite similar so far. I live in Calgary as well and am going to the Foothills clinic. We have tried clomid (x3), IUI's + Climid (x3) and are now on the waiting list for IVF. Its always great to find someone who can "relate"! Hope we can stay in touch as our IF battles continue!
Hi Just Waiting -
Thanks for stopping by and reading my little blog! It's so nice to meet you and have someone to share this experience with. CJDR is also Calgarian, and we have struck up a friendship through the Babycenter.ca boards. I would love to hear about your experiences, too! Which doctor is treating you at the clinic? I have Dr. Wong and CJ has Dr. Scott.
Take care,
SR
Hey Springroll and cjdr!ITs "justwaiting"...I only signed up for my login/password today and now I cant seem to remember what my darned pw is, yikes its been a long week already!
I am seeing Dr Wong as well, though I have been told that I may see many doctors when I am cycling because they all look after the IVF program together.
Are you guys on the waitlist as well? We went to the info session at the end of Jan but got on the list just prior...after my 3rd IUI failed and I was desperate for some hope!
I havent been on baby center. I usually check out TWW, FF and now I found a great site that is clinic specific with many girls from the Foothills. Great for answering questions and getting "insider tips";)
I noticed that you (cjdr) are seeing an acupuncturist in Calgary...do you mind me asking who you are seeing? I see Leslie Ring-Adams, but she is on Mat-leave now so I am open to suggestions!
Hey JW -
SO great to have you to talk with now! How have you found Dr. Wong to be? I would be interested in joining your group of Calgary girls - is there a site or a bulletin board that I need to sign up for?
We joined the waiting list in February - after our third failed IUI as well...we have so much in common. We attended the info session in March, and I am reading a book called "The Couple's Guide to Invitro Fertilization". I also bought "Nurturing Yourself Through IVF". CJ is seeing the acupuncturist that I recommended and saw - her name is Angela Fingler. She was good, but I stopped seeing her because I was giving up hope.
Enjoy the snow today! :)
The Canadian IVF site is: http://ivf.ca/forums/ There is a sections that is divided by clinic. I only joined a few weeks ago and only post every few days (babyobsessed). You should join! There is a thread started for people who are "waiting for first IVF". Which would be us;)
I must have mis-spelt my password and now I just can get into my account, grrr;) Check out the IVF page and we can chat more there!
Hey Justwaiting!
I really like the accupunture so far. I went 2 cycles without ovulation, and O'd after seeing her once...may have been coincidence, but I'll keep going. And thanks for the info on the foothills board...I will check that out for sure.
And if it makes you feel any better, I can't remember my address for my blog, and I dont know where to find it....
See you on the other boards.
Yes! I have my password...gosh my brain is mush sometimes!
You girls should join me over on the foothills board! It would be great to get to know you better. Infertility has been not only a trying time for me, but also a lonely time. My husband understand, of course, and is wonderful, but its different with men. And of course my friends are "thoughtful" but all pregnant or with children already so...you know.
Anyway, I will see you over there!
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