Okay...I have a confession to make...
I bought a diaper bag yesterday. But not just any diaper bag!! The "OiOi" charcoal dot tote bag...so totally cute and trendy and so totally on sale for $69.99 (regular up to $130.00!) It's big and beautiful - with lime green lining and all of the fun little accessories. But oooooh, I wrestled with my decision. Called Big Sis, who said that perhaps I shouldn't buy it for fear of jinxing myself...then called Mum at work, but she wasn't available. I carried it around the entire store for fear that someone else would snatch it up...and then I decided:
I'm going to buy it because it will give me hope.
I really want to be hopeful about this whole IVF thing - I want to believe that it's going to happen for us. I am going to concentrate all of my energies on making sure I do everything possible to make my first IVF my only IVF.
I have wrapped it up and tucked it away in the closet of the room that we were hoping would be our nursery. In my heart, I know it will be there, waiting for me. In my heart, I will have hope.